Good God, my mother was online and we have a Google search engine bar on the top and I forgot to clear all the stupid things I searched. Like on Self-Harm &i looked up my friend Timmy's screen name for a joke and stupid Stacey stuff you can imagine. So she's all, "Your lucky I cleared history. I don't know what was there.. like a bunch of junk.. Self-Hurt?" God darnit, Mother. She looked at me all weird. If she wasn't my mother, just some girl I hate.. I'd have killed her. I swear. Being an old bitch who gave birth to me doesn't give you the right to be all attitude with me. Fuck Adults. I hate them. Being older isn't half as shit cool as they say. God fucking God, I cannot wait to pay bills and have kids and fuck them up. RESPECT. There are some fucking adults who think you have to give it to older people. No, why have older assholes walk all over you and make you feel like shit? So you can be 'respectful' and say some shit like, "Yes sir". Whatev.. Respect is earned. I don't need to look up Respect to write about it.
Sure, tomorrow it'll all be Clean Slate.. because that's me.. one day I'll hate you; next day it's all new. Right now I could kill someone. Fucking Adults. Stupid System corrupters. I hate some adults who take their age as an excuse to get welfare and disabilities and screw the system for honest people. Moochers. Like this woman I know who is 45 and is on everything but welfare.. she hates welfare because they don't allow you to buy name brand stuff or even conditioner. That was her reasoning. So she gets all these programs. She doesn't even work. Her son is an asshole with no clue. I cannot explain it..but I guess.. you know those types who use their position to their advantage. Like my friend's grandma who is 70. Worked only for 20 years of her life from ages 20-40 and has been collecting Social Security ever since. Like Grandpa Simpson on The Simpsons said, "I'm Old..gimme gimme!". No wonder they think that my generation won't have any social security.
Okay, sometimes I get angry and let it all out, but a lot of the times I don't mean it. Not that I lie.. I really do believe a lot of those things I wrote.. it's just my anger made it come out 20 times worse. I write out my feelings and let it out.. it's my way of therapy really. So please don't get mad. I get stressed and write about it, it's not like I get violent or anything.